Happy Without You

I packed you away today, in my heart-shaped suitcase — the one with the broken handle broken from carrying too much weight of words unspoken, of words we hid behind our lips, tucked under our tongues, waiting to never be said. and so i packed you away along with the books we read together under my dim lamp light, along with the cds that got scratched from being played over and over again whenever you came and spent the night, along with the blankets and sheets and pillows we’d pull together to make ourselves a little tent, along with the secrets we whispered in secret underneath, along with the ripped tights when you got too excited in the idea of wrestling me, along with all the photos we ever took and every image i ever had of us in my memories. i packed you away so i could stay away, so you could keep away. i closed it tight and wrapped it twice in ribbon with a double knot and sent it off to sea. i sat there watching as you went and sat there hoping for the best — for me to live happily.. without you by my side.